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Expectation and Fear

It was hard for me to cope up with my life for the last couple of years. My emotions got the better of me. Unemployment is an unforgiving consequence of an ignorant academic life. “Past is gone. Future hasn’t arrived. So, live the present. It won’t come back the second time.” This statement is wrong on so many levels. I learnt it the hard way. More precisely, it should be, “Learn from the past. Rectify in the present. Anticipate the future.”

For an ordinary, middle class graduate, every mistake is a costly act of carelessness. We have so many hopes stacked on our shoulders. Parents expect us to end the chain of poverty. Siblings expect financial aids. Friends expect parties day in and day out. These expectations creates fear. Expectations are directly proportional to fear. When expectations increase, fear rises as well.

From the lessons life has taught me, I have learnt that fear is another name for failure. Where there is fear, success comes by rarely. I lived in fear for 27 long years. Every interviews, every exams and every endeavours I took, I did it with fear. That just brought me rejections. The day I decided to bar my fears out, I got employed. The only thing I repent about is not bidding my fears goodbye sooner.


Published by chengadawa

I am 26 years of age. I have Bachelors of Science in Forestry. I have been unemployed for some years and that has caused me a great amount of mental stress and anxiety. It has been really difficult for me to combat my anxiety and mental stress. But writing down my experience in my Blog helps ease my mind and I hope through this, people who are facing same dark period as myself, find hope and reasons not to give up on their smile.

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